deep think. simple say.

Your vow to me was eternity, no death to tear us apart. And what a wonderful promise, for our happily ever to start. Soon I realized that it’s not about the end at all, Like it’s not about the storm, but watching the rain fall. Although inherently different from all of the rest, We knew we would be forever and eternally blessed. Vows were not written, but some seem misunderstood, I feel it necessary to tell you your vows and yes, you’ve done good. What really counts is what we put inside of this eternity. And in only one year, all these vows have been made known to me…. From before our special day, you’ve vowed to fill the holes in my heart, Vowing each and every day, showing me we’d never be apart. I thought that I could be happy, all on my own, But I couldn’t have possibly been more wrong. And you vowed to show me everything I never knew I needed, Giving your love, your passion, and desires unheed

Chills in my veins. They're hollow and brittle, my spine shrinks away from my shivering heart. I feel numb and useless. my world isn't mine, people just live around me.

That morning, I knew my plot.  And I knew who I was. But a few things have changed since then. My pages are damp, ripping along the edges. Suddenly, all of my stars were falling and at that exact moment; everything. single. thing. about my story changed. Forever. You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have,  for 6 months, and thousands of pages. For so long, I had a chapter that I couldn't read aloud. And suddenly, another chapter was added to that list. 100 pages. There are two types of pains; one that hurts you and others that change you. The pain I felt hanging on for the one thing that just dropped me...  Well, sometimes you get the brightest light from a burning bridge.  I was no longer a prisoner of something I couldn't change. And they tried to bury me, but didn't know I was a seed. I came to a point where I knew I needed to just fall apart. I needed the opportunity to rebuild myself the way

I can feel the hollowness in my chest, but everyone said it's for the best. And I'm out here drowning hiding my pain with smiles, never growing. And I watch with troubled eyes as you rest, and slip away with every breath. I stare at the stars above and wonder if I'm still the one you're dreaming of. Cuz underneath the darkness, my light is trying so hard to be seen... I know this, cuz there's a little bit shining through my seams. It's all been taken and I've never been so shaken. But if this is what it takes, I'll be the one to bear the pain. And if this is what it takes,  I'll build up the wall that won't ever break. You keep telling me that I'll be fine, but I'm barely treading water and you're never home on time. I don't even know what I'm trying to do, I just know, I'm a fool for you. Cuz underneath, this darkness, Our light is trying so hard to be seen. And I knew us

“Don’t shine so that others may see you…shine so that through you, others may see Him.” I want to shine. I want to be that girl who walks in the room and makes everyone smile. I want to light a room without saying a word. I’ll give all that I am just to emanate His light and His goodness. The one who always takes the good from the bad and she literally radiates happiness, strength, independence, confidence, love, and surety. I want to shine. And who am I not to share this light? It’s hard to be an example of something I am not, but I am a Daughter of God. Brilliant, gorgeous, talented, caring. I am powerful beyond measure. There is nothing brilliant in shrinking so that others don’t feel insecure around me. We were meant to rise up our voices and give everything we got. I was born to make manifest the glories of our God. I am a light on a hill. And as I let my own light shine, it will give others the confidence to do the same. And I’ll be all I can be through Him and with

When you wake up to a sky as blue as cotton candy. The whitest, fluffiest clouds you’ve ever seen. Smelling the blossoming flowers. Chocolate. Witnessing a child’s innocence. Someone tells you that you look tan. Feeling the prickling feeling of the sun burning your skin. Sliding on those old worn out blue jeans that fit like a glove. Knowing you have absolutely nothing to do all day. Your husband’s hand on your lower back. Cuddling a child as they sleep. Warming up by a bon fire. Hearing crickets chirp. Smelling boat gasoline. Watching an old man grab his wife’s hand as they walk. Hearing your favorite song on the radio. Island music. The lake lapping at the sides of a boat while you lay on the dock. Walking into an arena with thousands of people. Wearing oversized hoodies. Hearing a child’s shrill laugh followed by a splash. Hitting every green light. The smell of Christmas cinnamon and oranges. Forehead kisses. Watching firewor

Oh babe, don’t you remember? That first night, I couldn’t look away. And here we are together, 6 months. And I’m here to stay. Ooohh…. It feels so right Knowing you could love me for the rest of my life. X2 You wouldn’t wait any longer, Couldn’t wait to drop on that knee. I ran and you got that ring, I said yes, you gave me everything Ooohh…. It feels so right, Knowing you could love me for the rest of my life X4

When the sting of the hot water hides the sting in your eyes, Salt in wounds, re opened everyday. To remind you, you’re not you anymore. And I’m tired of telling everyone I’m OK, I want to scream IM NOT OK. But they don’t understand, no one could. When they ask how I feel, where it hurts… I feel like I was just punched in the gut with every bit of food I take, Not to mention the feeling of glass cutting your esophagus rolling straight into your lungs so that later… when you hiccup? They can cut your ribs. Oh and don’t worry about breathing... Feeling a vice around my sternum that retaliates at me truing to take a deep breath, only to tighten harder on both my heart and spine, shooting stars outward, along every single rib front and back. And don’t be confused by the beauty of shooting starts. I literally mean, a burning ball of gas slowly dying into the atmosphere. And then there’s that lump, in the bac