deep think. simple say.

Chills in my veins. They're hollow and brittle, my spine shrinks away from my shivering heart. I feel numb and useless. my world isn't mine, people just live around me.

That morning, I knew my plot.  And I knew who I was. But a few things have changed since then. My pages are damp, ripping along the edges. Suddenly, all of my stars were falling and at that exact moment; everything. single. thing. about my story changed. Forever. You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have,  for 6 months, and thousands of pages. For so long, I had a chapter that I couldn't read aloud. And suddenly, another chapter was added to that list. 100 pages. There are two types of pains; one that hurts you and others that change you. The pain I felt hanging on for the one thing that just dropped me...  Well, sometimes you get the brightest light from a burning bridge.  I was no longer a prisoner of something I couldn't change. And they tried to bury me, but didn't know I was a seed. I came to a point where I knew I needed to just fall apart. I needed the opportunity to rebuild myself t...

I can feel the hollowness in my chest, but everyone said it's for the best. And I'm out here drowning hiding my pain with smiles, never growing. And I watch with troubled eyes as you rest, and slip away with every breath. I stare at the stars above and wonder if I'm still the one you're dreaming of. Cuz underneath the darkness, my light is trying so hard to be seen... I know this, cuz there's a little bit shining through my seams. It's all been taken and I've never been so shaken. But if this is what it takes, I'll be the one to bear the pain. And if this is what it takes,  I'll build up the wall that won't ever break. You keep telling me that I'll be fine, but I'm barely treading water and you're never home on time. I don't even know what I'm trying to do, I just know, I'm a fool for you. Cuz underneath, this darkness, Our light is trying so hard to be seen. And I knew us...