deep think. simple say.

Our hands lingered as I fell in love… and he smiled because he knew. I had a paperback heart, creased by a tough few years and present heartaches. The colors had faded in some chapters and my spine was worn out and weak. I was anxious to see my book in good hands for once. And he kissed my wounds, seeing them as cracks to put his love in rather than scars. I have lost myself in the one I love, but I found myself too. So now I sit here, fingers hovering over keys, staring at a blank page and a few messy lines. But my thoughts are stars I cannot fathom into constellations. For once, I’m speechless. So I think I’ll just start with our story. It’s the one that starts with me blushing shy and his eyes smiling under long lashes… And then… We were together. So I forgot the rest. I always found beauty in things that were imperfect- they are much more interesting and that made him my kind of perfect. And ever since then, ...

Song Melody: "Reason to Hope" by Ron Pope We climbed and stood, high on that tower In the blinding heat as the sun went down, we didn’t ask for it’s return Like gasoline on an open flame, we lit up so bright Scared you’d fly away; I’d fall apart as you looked the other way. But the only thing I’d need was this to not be a dream. And now you’re every breath I breathe. And it’s so hard You give me a reason to hope, a reason to smile as I still stand here, Maybe you’re the glimpse of the road, the patch of blue sky that I have believed in. I just need somebody to love, somebody to love, just need you to hold me; don’t let go. I need somebody to love. And it’s easy to say, that we can make it ‘cuz it’s black and white. Someday, we’ll make it. But we’re young and drunk on this blinded love. And our day came slow, and fell behind us, the dam broke down and the river surged. You were on your knees, looki...

Another dry hot day comes and goes away, I just wanna go home. I close my eyes and damn, this was my favorite view, looking down over those sprinklers and red barns. To just sit there and laugh. Memorizing the stars while we finished another pop from the town pump. We cruise down Main Street just about as fast as ol’ Sheila can go, speeding at 28 mph. But it’s a Friday night, so the town shuts down early to see our team. And those cheers are heard from across town, ‘cause we just scored again. I open my eyes and take in the city lights from my third story building, only hearing the desert buzz. And that’s when the country leaks out… My eyes drift close and see those yellow lights start to flash and it means that I better head on home. Decorated storefronts and a rusty John Deer in a backyard. Our feet swing from a dropped tailgate as dust kicks at our shoes, Singing along to Hank Jr. and Shania. We me...

Side my side. Brown eyes next to blue. Reflections in the water, a magnifying glass. Your brown eyes see past primes. Silver hidden beneath dye. Starlight that kissed your head on a late summer night, rocking a newborn to sleep. Scars. A reminder that your past was real,   but that you were stronger than what tried to hurt you. A spot on your hand. A smile glowing in the sunlight, touching pink cheeks alive with delight. A crinkle in your eye. Laughter making your eyes disappear amidst giggles and memories. Worn and tired. Your dreams have become your life, goals ceased that were once desires. When the water flows from your cheeks and some days are too hard to fake that smile; It’s just the little girl in the woman that a child now calls mom. You’ve been seeing through a tinted lens of brown. If only you could live inside these clear blue eyes. You see, these blue eyes have looked up to see brown eyes closed...

And I hate that you're still part of it because when that cold creeps back to my heart I feel alone even in a room of 35 My blinks get faster and looking up only helps until the splash hits my pillow And the mascara stains that won't come out of my sheets I don't want to play hide and seek as huddled mass beneath sheets or comforters They really don't comfort me and I feel like grey and biting breeze And shaking from nothing but memory and fears.... Don’t give me love like him The fear has sunk deeper than oceans go and it's still there But why should I be like shards of glass when I just want to be a diamond for you And you cut back the words you wish to say to spare my chill My throat blocks out any emotion I should be feeling and the stone wall greets me once again I don't greet it back  even that seems hard to do these days But sometimes I actually look happy when I practice my smile in the mirror And if I blur ...

Girl I’ve been thinking of us and all we could be The life to come and the memories we could see So I’ll take this night and whisper my plea To your father and redeemer, please hear me, my king; Should I marry this princess Should I make her my whole world Should I make our lives one and give this a whirl Should I bless her with eternity for the rest of her life Should I make her my lovely, my beloved, my wife Girl I’ve been prayin about us and all we can be Our life about to come and the memories that’ll be I must pray to ask the father of my bride soon to be Your daddy, an angel, please hear me this eve’ Can I marry your princess Can I have your whole world Can I make our lives one, and give it a whirl Can I bless her with eternity for the rest of her life Can I make your daughter my lovely, my beloved, my wife. Please, I beg to have your princess, to make her my que...

I love you You see, those words can only go for awhile and I can only run so far I need to show you but i cant and I need your eyes to touch my lips Your hands to feel my heart Your voice nearly mocks me the Tear stains and red calendar Xs But then... that smile..oh that smile and The sparkle reaches out for your eyes And suddenly I'm glowing and I cant help But I help but to say it and when I say it What I really mean to say is; There are these knots. These knots in my chest, heavy and I cant breathe s-l-o-w-l-y I fill my lungs and the butterflies flood the airway and.. So I laugh, because it tickles. You see, what I truly mean is that… that they’re Fuzzy. And they have wings and antennae and FEELINGS And I try to say it before the Blood leaks onto my cheeks and the ivory fades away And then you say those three words back and... Butterflies!!...

The world was small and so were we Spilled cheerios and jam faces I stood for my brother and he told me, Come walk to me Related to him, laughing with him, life with him The world grew into me and I grew into the world Skinned knees but a happy face I held my daddy’s strong hand and he told me, Come walk near me Protected by him, loved by him, only with him. High school was my world and I felt so big. Lustful drama and masked faces I fell for him and he didn’t help me stand, he said Come walk behind me Hidden after him, scared of him, life with him. The world became mean and I felt so small Broken heart and tear streaked face I knelt to pray and He said Come walk with me Shining through Him, renewed in Him, Life through Him. My world was bright, and I was finally just fine Mended heart, I found the missing half And he knelt...

i feel the wall crashing down again. he had been away for so long. my heart beats harder and his gate shuts off in my throat i can feel his waters lapping at the back of my eyes. but he is strong. we are strong. he has to be, the choice is simple and secret. those secrets. they scrape, scarring the inside of the wall. they never escape. they CAN'T escape. the wall protects my heart at it's weakest. when all else crumbles down, he holds strong for me. he really is the only one i've learned to trust. we were best friends for awhile. and he's come back. I never doubted he'd show up soon, with all the commotion. unbreakable. unreachable. unwarmable. he chills my heart and puts hot irons down my throat. but i love him. he takes me away. he lets me hurt in private. the water on my face dries before anyone can see. and this time, i think he may be staying for awhile.

and these last strides, You’re in white while your prince stands waiting. small hand slips too soon from my own.  into another's grasp. Music plays into the night For the moment, you’re in my arms again. Arms that once rocked you to sleep. not worried about if time passed by. Because for the moment, I held tomorrow in my arms. But this night, I hold someone else's tomorrow. yet, when I looked down at you laying on my chest, it's easy to say that no boy in the world could love you more than I love you. You’ve found your Prince Charming but I’ll always be your king. My princess is married, And now you’re HIS queen. But remember, I loved you first.